so it's the holidays and after fasting i go around to the different prayer houses to see what they have to eat and see some friends. most of my friends are married have children have a job have a life to live. it's not the same as before. people change. they are more busy, they look tired and worn out they can't wait to get this life over with and move on. it's not that bad they still love life but it's exhausting. yep it's a struggle, this is planet bloodshed.

almost every prayer house i go to has a problem with the shoe area and keeping socks clean. today before sunset i got ready early to go eat in the prayer house because i was really hungry i only had a bite to eat the day before so i was really looking forward to breaking fast with some spicy indian food.

i saw someone coughing and sneezing on his way to the prayer house walking up the pavement and fully blowing his nose into a napkin then on purpose he held the napkin in the palm of his left hand and firmly grabbed the door handle and went inside. the handle was wet and glossy, you could see the shine on it. i don't think he was a member, some non members always come to eat, there are a lot of them.

there are people who come to the prayer houses specifically to cause mischief, we have no security. they have the poor women locked away in the basement or in the back divided you don't know what's going on.

this was on the first week of the holidays, i saw someone step in some junky puke just outside and go inside staining the carpet area where people walk barefeet. 

when i entered this prayer house i took off my shoes at the entrance here and was wondering how i was going to get inside without walking in someone else's shoe prints. there is no other way to get inside and so my socks did get dirty. people just don't care anymore.

this is another place on another different day. people always bring food and leave it on the shoe shelf for us to break fast with, you can see the shoe stains right there where they put the food right on it.

people don't warn new members about this, i've seen people join the community and fall into the same mistakes as everyone and this is just related to hygiene. sometimes the carpet smells like sweaty socks crotch and sometimes second hand cigarette smoke if you're praying in a spot a smoker prayed in or next to someone who smells bad.

people usually only warn new members about other prayer houses and other sects not because they really care but because they want to beef up their own congregation for tax benefits and it works magic on your ego. for instance you cant be seen with remembrance beads in some prayer houses they say it's a punishable offence. i've seen people come to the prayer house to join and become a member and they can't even pronounce the witnessing properly and this is the most important decision in life. the person helping them pronounce the witnessing make them sound so retarded. sh uh ah buh ra muh su and the new member has to repeat themselves like an idiot.